This is me. Free, wild, strong, brave, determined and as real as it gets.
I am unashamedly proud of who I am. Writing these words made me feel like I was being too much and I’ve deleted them so many times. Praising others is easy but feels slightly cringe when it comes to saying it to myself. But here I am leaving these words 'PROUD OF WHO I AM' here to be seen by all.
I haven’t always been like this. This wild woman you see before you is after years of unravelling and peeling back the layers. Years of trying to release trauma, let go of anger, bitterness, shame and fear. Years of nourishing my mind and body to restore my nervous system to a happy and healthy place.
I’m not a finished article. I’m still very much on my journey. I’m still scared to speak up; to be seen, heard and be brave enough to stand out. But I know I’m getting further each and every day and I’m doing things that scare the shit out of me knowing that’s where the growth happens.
I still have dreams of being in danger, screaming for help and yet no sound comes out. These dreams are relentless, they come back in different forms and stories each time, crippling me as I so want to be heard and to be kept safe. These dreams show me what I need to work on and which parts of me still need soothing. It represents all those years I couldn’t speak up, suppressing my emotions, suppressing the truth, being made to feel small, unseen and unworthy of love.
It takes years, sometimes decades, of work to overcome, undo and rewire the wrongdoings and conditionings of our lives, and past lives. But yet we are still here, we continue to show up for ourselves and for others.
The journey continues but we don’t have to do this alone. This is one of the reasons I hold women’s circles and events. There is nothing more powerful than when women come together and are seen, heard, acknowledged without judgement and accepted for who we are, in whatever form that comes in. It brings comfort to know that we are not alone. We all carry our own trauma and struggles.
My desire is for all women to move into a place of feeling wild, free and empowered to love themselves and not give a shit about what anyone else thinks.
REPEAT THESE WORDS TO YOURSELF
“I am free. I am wild. I am worthy.”
Continue to say them until you truly believe them.
I hope to see you at a women’s circle soon, to co-create and continue to support each other on our journey’s to being unapologetically wild, free and empowered.
I’ll leave you with this quote:
“Individually, we are one drop. Together, we are an ocean.”
– Ryunosuke Satoro
With love, Kate xx
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